Please Don’t

Please don’t do that

these days

Don’t say you’ll call and

not call

Don’t say you’re here

and not be here

Don’t smile fondly

when I cannot see it

Don’t message about holding me

when you are not near

Please don’t do that

these days

Please see that I am growing

a belly

A little tubby creature

inside me

Please see that it makes me

lose balance

shift my centre of gravity

coz sometimes

bigger doesn’t mean stronger

This kind of bigger doesn’t mean hardy

at all

You understand the agony

of waiting

You understand the darkness

of 3 am

You understand the loneliness

of empty hands at 4 am

So please

don’t say you will

and then don’t.