Walk away. No. Stay put.
Relax. No. Tighten your belt.
Wait for the morning. No. Savour the vacant night.
Tuck tummy in. Stand straight. Walk with confidence. Smile.
Study to cook for yourself. Inhale. Construct the aspiration to cook for others. Exhale. Delegate all the hours in the kitchen to the pit of selfless service. De-construct your younger self. Service your new family by picking up their language. Service your companion by ‘being nice’ in his world. Develop powers of endurance to assuage loneliness. Extract sexual desire from the mound of disillusion. Morph powdered anger into physical need. Destroy all demons by keeping awake at night. Look under the bed to ensure the death of black spiders. Scrub all tears off in red and blue buckets of soap. Sustain happiness to a constant by keeping memories singing. Ride the wave of jewelry with panache. Hide your body from the only one who loves it so well.
Know what you want in life. Go get it.
Don’t close doors. Don’t ask for space. Don’t speak your mind. Stop. Don’t be rude. Don’t repeat yourself. Don’t take it to heart. Discontinue longing. Cease yearning. Never be unaccountable. Don’t ask to be left alone. Don’t fabricate explanations. Don’t keep quiet. Don’t betray. Don’t ask to be free. Don’t take it to heart.
Adjust to every circumstance.
Meet your best friend after two years. Drink coffee to the snap of her words. Look out the window of the coffee shop to notice the world passing by. Observe a man leaning into a woman’s neck at the next table as she caresses the sadness out of him. Ponder on the friend’s vivacity, longer hair, brighter eyes. Envy her enthusiasm. Admire her guts. Concentrate on her cherry lips. Babble about imaginary happiness. Focus on the new book in hand. Quiz friend about it. Delight in her laughter.
Watch one movie after another. Know the latest news. Make idle talk. Aspire to kindness. Aim for complete self-effacement. Only talk about your fantasies. Slink deeper into madness. Close your mouth. Stand on two feet. Hang by the thread of vulnerability. Realize the extent of your poverty. Go back to the kitchen. Switch on the exhaust. Open the windows. Throw open the doors. Will fresh air to sweep into the house. Scatter books everywhere. Grab them at mealtimes. Hold them before and after mealtimes.
Keep away from alcohol. Drown in illness. Come up for air in slumber. Rescue your soul from pale freedoms. Prepare to stuff your bags with neglected dreams. Empty all pockets of the past. Throw out the garbage. Supervise the housework. Buy a whiteboard. Revise your taste palette. Scribble fresh dribble every day. Revisit old entries on the blog. Pick up the language of love. Don’t use it. Re-write consequences alone.
Correct the older mistake. Make a new one.
Relax. No. Tighten your belt.
Wait for the morning. No. Savour the vacant night.
Tuck tummy in. Stand straight. Walk with confidence. Smile.
Study to cook for yourself. Inhale. Construct the aspiration to cook for others. Exhale. Delegate all the hours in the kitchen to the pit of selfless service. De-construct your younger self. Service your new family by picking up their language. Service your companion by ‘being nice’ in his world. Develop powers of endurance to assuage loneliness. Extract sexual desire from the mound of disillusion. Morph powdered anger into physical need. Destroy all demons by keeping awake at night. Look under the bed to ensure the death of black spiders. Scrub all tears off in red and blue buckets of soap. Sustain happiness to a constant by keeping memories singing. Ride the wave of jewelry with panache. Hide your body from the only one who loves it so well.
Know what you want in life. Go get it.
Don’t close doors. Don’t ask for space. Don’t speak your mind. Stop. Don’t be rude. Don’t repeat yourself. Don’t take it to heart. Discontinue longing. Cease yearning. Never be unaccountable. Don’t ask to be left alone. Don’t fabricate explanations. Don’t keep quiet. Don’t betray. Don’t ask to be free. Don’t take it to heart.
Adjust to every circumstance.
Meet your best friend after two years. Drink coffee to the snap of her words. Look out the window of the coffee shop to notice the world passing by. Observe a man leaning into a woman’s neck at the next table as she caresses the sadness out of him. Ponder on the friend’s vivacity, longer hair, brighter eyes. Envy her enthusiasm. Admire her guts. Concentrate on her cherry lips. Babble about imaginary happiness. Focus on the new book in hand. Quiz friend about it. Delight in her laughter.
Watch one movie after another. Know the latest news. Make idle talk. Aspire to kindness. Aim for complete self-effacement. Only talk about your fantasies. Slink deeper into madness. Close your mouth. Stand on two feet. Hang by the thread of vulnerability. Realize the extent of your poverty. Go back to the kitchen. Switch on the exhaust. Open the windows. Throw open the doors. Will fresh air to sweep into the house. Scatter books everywhere. Grab them at mealtimes. Hold them before and after mealtimes.
Keep away from alcohol. Drown in illness. Come up for air in slumber. Rescue your soul from pale freedoms. Prepare to stuff your bags with neglected dreams. Empty all pockets of the past. Throw out the garbage. Supervise the housework. Buy a whiteboard. Revise your taste palette. Scribble fresh dribble every day. Revisit old entries on the blog. Pick up the language of love. Don’t use it. Re-write consequences alone.
Correct the older mistake. Make a new one.
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